“Smiling while drowning is not strength. It’s self-abandonment.” There is a version of me people know. He’s charismatic. He’s strong. He’s articulate. He leads well. He makes people laugh. He shows up. That version of me has walked into rooms emotionally empty… and still energized everyone inside of them. He has led meetings while mentally spiraling. He has empowered others while crumbling by the second. He has stood on stages, spoken life into people, and then gone home feel